Homesickness is Acceptable

I have debated with myself about posting this but I don't want to leave out any part of this transition.  Today has been a tough day....emotional roller coaster is a better description.  Straight to the point, I miss my little East Texas town with its wonderfully loving people!  Don't get me wrong, I am not unhappy...just a little homesick for the familiar.  I was just telling Clint today that I am so used to be in control of the things that have gone on in our lives, my life, our boy's lives that right now I am feeling completely out of sorts.  Maybe overwhelmed with newness is a good way to put it.  People have always told me that I am a strong, independent woman and that I always seem to have things under control....well earlier today I did not feel so strong!  I have shed some tears today....I do not like to cry because it makes me feel weak, but for some reason the thing that makes me feel weak is the thing that I do when I am really angry or overwhelmed!  I think that Clint had a good idea earlier when he told me that I need to learn the Serenity Prayer.....

God grant me the serenity 

to accept the things I cannot change; 

courage to change the things I can;

and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time; 

Enjoying one moment at a time; 

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; 

Taking, as He did, this sinful world

as it is, not as I would have it; 

Trusting that He will make all things right

if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life 

and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen.

So for those of you that are praying for us, please continue to pray...I will never turn down prayer.  Please understand, I am not unhappy and our family is doing well.  I am just a little homesick for the familiar....pine trees, courtesy, waving to folks you know, pets, family, friends...  Things will get easier and I know that I can do this.... Clint did this for 8 months on his own, and I am getting to adjust with my family around me.  I can't imagine how tough it was for him that whole time.  I am thankful to have his love and support during this time.