Trying To Be Patient

My mind seems to be constantly consumed with schedules, dates, events, plans, no plans, no dates, what events, where, why, or when did that happen?.. I know that this is pretty normal for most women, and it is normal for me.  It is something I try to keep in order as much as I can.  Sometimes the feeling is one of impatience…not knowing…anticipation…stress/worry.  Sometimes it builds up and becomes overwhelming.  I am constantly trying to remind myself that things will work out and all will be fine, or it is what it is, right?!

EVER FEEL THIS WAY?

There seems to always be something that needs to be planned, or maybe it's just that I WANT them to be planned.  This is where I am trying to be patient….

Patient in….

* summer planning (multiple schedules for all of us)

* my own profession

* my hubby's profession

* weightloss or being healthier (yes, I know only I can control this)

* events I have created (who's coming, who's not)

* baseball plans for the boys

* how and when to see family and friends 

It is exhausting!  I tend to be a people pleaser, the welcoming committee, the leader, the planner, the peacekeeper, etc…  I worry about family and friends being upset with us because our summer plans are busy and not 100% free for seeing them during our time home in Texas.  Summer sometimes ends up not being very relaxing.  

Patience is a virtue….however have you ever noticed that there are different types or areas of patience? Or different times of the day where your patience level is higher than other times?  I know I have noticed….  It takes a conscious effort to be patient.  I spend all day maintaining a level of patience for a little girl I teach that has special needs, and by the end of the day I am scrapping at bits of what patience I have left for my family….It's not fair to them, but like said it takes a conscious effort….

AND I am TRYING TO BE PATIENT…

TRYING

TRYING

TRYING